I don’t like to feel things. I don’t like feelings. I don’t like having to miss someone. I don’t like having to wonder what they’re up to. I don’t like having this attachment to anyone.

Everything feels so wrong, yet so right.

And now I feel like I should be a better person, because I don’t want to disappoint you.

I don’t want to be a failure.

I want to be the girl that you can show off, and speak highly of. I want to be that amazing and wonderful girl of yours. But I can never be that person, and that really sucks.

And I really like you.

And I opened up to you, not entirely, but of course the rest comes with time.

Now my head feels like it’s going to explode because I have all these thoughts.

And all these feelings.

And these feelings make me feel so horrible.

Because it reminds me that I’m not as an amazing girl as you keep saying I am.

I am just a fucked up a girl trying to find a peace of mind.

And then I found you.

My prince charming.

And you make me feel things I haven’t felt in a really long time.

And I just…

I suck.