People often ask me why I don’t open up, why I refuse to let down my guard, why my walls are built so high, but they don’t seem to understand that each time I try to open up, each time that I try to let my guard down, and break down my walls, something seems to come in the way and ruin it. I try so hard to be kind, and to be open minded, I try so hard to show others who I really I am, but they don’t seem to see me. I will always give my full trust to someone until they give me a reason not to. I will always give people the benefit of the doubt. I’d like to believe that people, at the core, can be genuinely good people. Yet time and time again I’ve been given the backhand of the deal, and my foolish trust runs dry. I’m so foolish. 

So goddamn foolish. 

I've learned my lesson now.

The less I say, the better I'll feel.

The less I do, the better I'll be.

The less, is the better.

And if something was wrong, I will go directly to that person.

I will no longer talk to my problems to anyone.

I will lock myself up in this labyrinth.

My life, will become, the biggest secret I'll ever have to keep.

I'm through with trying to be open,

I'm through with believing in people,

believing that they will never tell a soul,

when in reality when I'm not there,

they'll tell a whole crowd.

I'm through with my name being spoken through someone else's lips.